Stop with the two looks. Stop with the pretending, the role playing, the acting, the whatever. I don't need those happy faces. I can see right through them. Stop being blond when that's not your hair color. Stop being cold when you know you want to feel warm. Stop trying to be invincible when you know you could be conquer. Stop making me think about you even though its my choice to do so. Stop making excuses when you know your the reason. Stop the extra noise that's ruining my music of my life. I'm composer. I have a tough exterior, but I wear my heart in my sleeve. And sometimes it falls out when no one is looking, and I have to be the one to pick it up. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. Stop having people run you over. Stop ignoring what is happening right in front of you. Stop with the burst of your voice when no one wants to hear it. Stop respecting people like they're crap and I will start respecting you. Stop being an idealistic and focus on reality. Live for the moment, not for the outcome.
Stop the chaos that's ruining my life.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
1000 Cranes
1000 Cranes, 1 wish
This is what I want to do for a class project. Every night when I think about Japan, tears wind up in my eyes. This isn't something that I can't do alone. I want everyone to help. I already talked to Ms. Clarke about this project and she wants to put it into action as soon as the District thinks it would be alright.
What happened in Japan is something that no one wants or even predicted. I can't just sit here and pray or hope. I want to give hope. I want help someone who I don't even know. Someone who lives many miles away. The feeling is amazing to know that I can be helping someone like that.
My wish: Please let it be alright.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
New and Old
I haven't really posted for a long time. I guess I'll start out with the old and go into the new.
Old: Still swimming. Hard as ever. The usual, but with a new group. I love my team and I don't know where I would be without them. It would be hard to see them go on for their separate ways. College is the path that many of us choose. And as I make new friends, I will also loose old ones for a while. But like they say, when you love something, you let them go, and hope that they will come back. I also the same goals. Its getting pretty intense. I have a chance to make Nationals and as well as the 2012 Olympic Trials. I never been this excited since I got my Junior Cut last summer. Its a season that I will never forget.
New: Two letters: IB. It kills me sometimes, yet, it brings us together. I love my skype group to death. I even got to reunite back with my friend from the 1st grade. Even though we went to the same school ever since 1st grade. Haha. TOK is also going well, I still hate waking up early. Colleges are looking at me right now. I'm afraid that one slip up can ruin my chances. But no matter what happens, I will always have my chin high. Now I have two friends that I have like every class with: Marianne and Maria (Nikki). I can always count on them, no matter what. Its funny cause us three comeplete each other. Marianne is the smart, silent, yet adorable; Maria (Nikki) is the smart, musically talented, but a tad bit on the weird and loud side; and then there's me: the smart, atheltic, blunt, however, shy and sweet. In athletics, I'm the dominate one. Most outgoing, Nikki. The silent type, except around her friends, Marianne. Its fun hanging out with them.
Another new thing. With every new year, there's also a new guy. Let me start off with his name: Collin. (Not gonna put lastname.) Anyways, he's 6'1", while I'm sitting at still, 5'4". (Ugh I want to be 5'7"!). He's smart, and according to our pyschology test, he's more masucline than I. :p But he makes my heart skip a beat, and sometimes, I find myself forgetting to breathe when he's near. He doesn't really get out of my head, except maybe in the middle of practice. But I end up thinking about him afterwards. It sucks a bit. One thing about him that I like is his smile. Usually I don't really pick out things, but I think he's like the most adorable person in the world, (except maybe when Rory got his singing-gram), but he's adorable. And I really liked him.
Oh yeah!
PS: he was the first boy ever, that I asked to go to a dance with me....
Old: Still swimming. Hard as ever. The usual, but with a new group. I love my team and I don't know where I would be without them. It would be hard to see them go on for their separate ways. College is the path that many of us choose. And as I make new friends, I will also loose old ones for a while. But like they say, when you love something, you let them go, and hope that they will come back. I also the same goals. Its getting pretty intense. I have a chance to make Nationals and as well as the 2012 Olympic Trials. I never been this excited since I got my Junior Cut last summer. Its a season that I will never forget.
New: Two letters: IB. It kills me sometimes, yet, it brings us together. I love my skype group to death. I even got to reunite back with my friend from the 1st grade. Even though we went to the same school ever since 1st grade. Haha. TOK is also going well, I still hate waking up early. Colleges are looking at me right now. I'm afraid that one slip up can ruin my chances. But no matter what happens, I will always have my chin high. Now I have two friends that I have like every class with: Marianne and Maria (Nikki). I can always count on them, no matter what. Its funny cause us three comeplete each other. Marianne is the smart, silent, yet adorable; Maria (Nikki) is the smart, musically talented, but a tad bit on the weird and loud side; and then there's me: the smart, atheltic, blunt, however, shy and sweet. In athletics, I'm the dominate one. Most outgoing, Nikki. The silent type, except around her friends, Marianne. Its fun hanging out with them.
Another new thing. With every new year, there's also a new guy. Let me start off with his name: Collin. (Not gonna put lastname.) Anyways, he's 6'1", while I'm sitting at still, 5'4". (Ugh I want to be 5'7"!). He's smart, and according to our pyschology test, he's more masucline than I. :p But he makes my heart skip a beat, and sometimes, I find myself forgetting to breathe when he's near. He doesn't really get out of my head, except maybe in the middle of practice. But I end up thinking about him afterwards. It sucks a bit. One thing about him that I like is his smile. Usually I don't really pick out things, but I think he's like the most adorable person in the world, (except maybe when Rory got his singing-gram), but he's adorable. And I really liked him.
Oh yeah!
PS: he was the first boy ever, that I asked to go to a dance with me....
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